The darkness of the shadow

Thoughts while walking near Lake Catani, Mount Buffalo

I am walking in the shadow not sure of what I see, the shadow I see is the back of me. One step at a time is the best I can be. I am following the shadow or is it following me.

I’m not sure where I want to go. I’m not sure what I want to do. I know I can’t stay in one place. I’ve am doing one day at a time - moving forward.

If the shadow is dark, the sun must be bright. Shining brightly on my back, the warmth of sun fills me, gives me hope. I am grateful that I have ability to be grateful. I am grateful that I am humble.

The shadow looks strong, capable, like it has the ability to be a pillar of support for others. Maybe I am that, but I need to be strong within myself.

I need to forgive myself. I need to love myself.